Category: Musings

Of elixirs and rejuvenation

via Daily Prompt: Elixir

It feels like it’s been a long few days.

I need to be held, to be made to laugh straight from my belly till my eyes tear. I need to be held. I wanna go home.

I feel tired, like i need to be rejuvenated by something..i just don’t know what..sigh… Could this be homesickness?

I went for some runs last week and that felt good.

I keep thinking of going for some runs this week but this cough that threatens to get worse but no promises of getting better makes me think twice. I don’t want to wake up with a horrible cough that could have me bedridden.

Some things at work are beginning to get me down. I’m trying not to let them affect me but…it is what it is. I hope that this is a temporary feeling.

I don’t know what my elixir could be. Maybe a good night’s sleep. Maybe getting over this cough or some company of the male persuasion or a few glasses of wine. Or it could just be that i need to give myself some time. It is said that time makes everything better.

I hope you’re doing better. Perhaps you could offer me some suggestions of elixir..?

So much to tell you…

So much has happened in the last month and a half. As a tree spreads its branches, i am spreading the reach of my mind, arms and life experiences.

I moved countries for work!!  YAY!

God is amazing i tell you.

I had a smooth flight to Libreville, Gabon and i  was taken to my new apartment…everything was dandy. I could not wait to go to the beach…my toes were calling out for it.

But…the election results hadn’t been announced just yet so i had to wait.

Then there were plumes of smoke as people took to the streets. It is scary no matter the scale and number of people.

I was indoors with other colleagues and we got to hang out and get to know each other a bit.

When i got out and about i discovered that i love (absolutely love) the baguettes. They are made fresh daily everywhere. YUMMY!! And pizzerias are all over the place. In Kenya i was eating and living a diabetic lifestyle but here it is next to impossible. I found brown bread, finally, but no brown rice..and lack of exercise 😦

School is in session and so far so good.

The only challenge for me is that this is a French speaking country and i have to brush up on my rusty and dusty French. I welcome the challenge.

i have been slacking on my exercise and i am feeling like a whale. I have tried to get out and run but the humidity is thick and i feel like it is just sitting on my chest when i attempt a short jog; but i will do my best.

I know i won’t do the half marathon that is coming up in November but i definitely want to/have to do the 10k.

 

 

Complications

Complications happen when we listen to other people tell us or what we should do about every bit of our lives.

Uncomplicate yourself. Free yourself from that which you think/know is holding you back. It’s all in your head, I promise. 
The sense of freedom you will feel will make you truly unfuckwithable!! 

Good luck! 

Relearning

I have realised that i have been living life at a speed that is not good for me and is causing more harm than good. Because i am missing so much!

Like i start a conversation with a friend/s and i know what they will say next and probably why they will say it. I wonder why no one else sees what i see and so i come across as brusque and arrogant because in my head i have already had the conversation. Sometimes people have said something so totally different and unexpected and of course that has caused me to stop and really listen, and apologise, before i’m off again at top speed.

Recently i have made a conscious choice to slow down and really listen and be in the moment. Just because i know that that lady or gentleman will take a left doesn’t mean i should take a right just to sidestep them and get to wherever i am getting to just a bit faster.

I am taking the time to look at their faces and guess what is going on in their lives and maybe grab them before they hit the ground as they stumble, receive a deep thank you and smile. And maybe, this being Africa, they will remember me and wave next time we meet wherever we meet.

I am really listening to shows when i watch them and thus not having to watch them a second and third time unless i really enjoyed them and not just to have a conversational piece but to really feel it.

It has been a humbling experience learning more about my world and seeing more, hearing more.

This has led to me being a lot calmer. I didn’t realise how clenched my being was.

In this very small way, the universe is teaching me anew about life and my world. So far, so good. 🙂